From MEMO to ITEM

I'm glad this happened.  I've always associated the term "educational media" with filmstrips for some reason.

May it give not only the general educational community a different perception of what we do, but our own membership as well.

Messiah Complex or Impostor Syndrome: Is there a happy medium?

Have you ever had the feeling that you didn't really know what you were doing, and it was just a matter of time before someone realized it and exposed you as a fraud? Do you suffer from Imposter Syndrome?  Olivia Cabane, Huffington Post, March 23, 2012.

A messiah complex ...  is a state of mind in which an individual holds a belief that they are, or are destined to become, a savior. Wikipedia.

If you're not having fun, NOBODY is having fun. Anonymous.

Even after giving well over 500  keynotes, conference sessions, and workshops in my "professional" speaking career, I am still convinced that any day I will be exposed as the fraud I know myself to be.

I worry before presentations. A lot. The brain kicks in at 3AM and doesn't want to shut off. I regularly have nightmares that I am unprepared to speak, late for an event, or can't find where I am supposed to be. I harbor doubts about my expertise, my style of delivery, the currency of my knowledge, and even my entire philosophical stance about technology. librarianship, and education. Even life. Everyone seems to know more than I do, light years beyond me in thinking and skills. And this anxiety applies to my professional writing as well.

So it was with a sigh of relief when my last presentation for the year (at our state technology conference) was over. I now have a chance to reflect on why I continue to do public speaking and workshops - and write for publication. It is, I suppose, because deep inside I feel I have something important to share that will improve things - or more often, that I am good at sharing the good ideas of other people. But then what makes me think my ideas are any better than anyone else's? That they are so important I need to get up in front of people and potentially waste hundreds of hours of human potential at one time. Do I suffer not just from the Imposter Syndrome but a Messiah Complex as well? Do I think I should be saving the world?

Like it or not, public speaking, public writing is a compulsion. An addiction no less strong than alcohol or tobacco, I suspect. While I stew continuously before a presentation, a high kicks in when I am actually in front of a group. They laugh at the right times. They say nice things after the talk. They e-mail and say they found what I had to say useful or meaningful or challenging. It's a rush.

Public speaking and public writing are performances. And those who perform enjoy it. Who doesn't like being the center of attention? Whose ego is not stroked with positive comments. Who isn't shattered when the comments are negative - but vow to do better in the future.

I envy those consultants and speakers and gurus who seem so invincible, so sure, so confident, so sure they are 100% correct. Go for it. Change the world. I am in awe. 

Me? I think I need a couple weeks to reflect, to decompress, to gauge my actual value to the world.

BFTP: 7 stupid mistakes teachers make with technology

A weekend Blue Skunk "feature" will be a revision of an old post. I'm calling this BFTP: Blast from the Past.  Original post December 5, 2008. This list also appears in my book The Classroom Teacher's Technology Survival Guide.

stupid (adjective): given to unintelligent decisions or acts m-w.com

Stupid is as stupid does. Forrest Gump

Stupid is not my favorite word. It sounds mean and harsh and ugly. But after reading that according to Newsweek that 25% of employees visit porn sites from work, and that the adult video industry claims hits on porn sites are highest during the work day*, it was truly the only term that seems to fit this sort of human behavior. I don't have any overwhelming objections to pornography per se. But perusing it at work? That's stupid.

I use stupid under fairly constrained conditions. To me, a stupid act has a degree of willfulness about it and is serious. Making an error once is ignorance; making the same mistake multiple times is stupidity. Unfortunately, I see stupid acts and beliefs related to technology in schools too often.

These would be my nominees for the most stupid things** a teacher can do related to technology...

1. Not backing up data. "You mean having two copies of my files on the hard drive doesn't count as a backup?" The first time a teacher loses his/her precious data my heart breaks. The second time, well, stupidity ought cause some suffering.

2. Treating a school computer like a home computer. Teachers who use a school computer to run a business, edit their kid's wedding videos, or send tasteless jokes to half of North America (including that fundamentalist English teacher down the hall) are being stupid. Teachers who take their computers home and let their kids hack on them are being stupid. Teachers who don't own a personal computer for personal business deserve to get into well-deserved trouble.

3. Not supervising computer-using students. It is really stupid to believe Internet filters will keep kids out of trouble on the Internet. For so many reasons. Even the slow kids who can't get around the school's filter, can still exploit that 10% of porn sites the filter won't catch if they choose to do so. They can still send cyberbullying e-mail - maybe even using your email address. Or they can just plain waste time.

4. Thinking online communication is ever private. Eventually everyone sends an embarrassing personal message to a listserv. I've heard of some tech directors who get their jollies reading salacious inter-staff e-mails. You school e-mails can be requested and must be produced if germane to any federal lawsuits. Even e-mails deleted from your computer still sit on servers somewhere - often for a very loooong time. Think you wiped out your browsing history? Don't bet that that is the only set of tracks you've left that show where you've been surfing. Your Facebook page will be looked at by the school board chair and your superintendent and principal know who the author of that "anonymous" blog is. Not assuming everyone can see what you send and do online is stupid.

5. Believing that one's teaching style need not change to take full advantage of technology. Using technology to simply add sounds and pictures to lectures is stupid. Smart technology use is about changing the roles of teacher and student. The computer-using student can now be the content expert; the teacher becomes the process expert asking questions like - where did you get that information, how do you know it's accurate; why is it important, how can you let others know what you discovered, and how can you tell if you did a good job? The world has changed and it is rank stupidity not to recognize it and change as well.

6. Ignoring the intrinsic interest of tech use in today's kids. Kids like technology. Not using it as a hook to motivate and interest them in their education is stupid.

7. Thinking technology will go away in schools. The expectation tha "This too shall pass" has worked for a lot of educational practices and theories. Madeline Hunter, Outcomes-Based Education, whole language, and yes, some day, NCLB all had their day in the sun before being pushed aside by the next silver bullet. (I think that metaphor was a bit confused. Sorry.) But it is stupid to think technology will go away in education. It isn't going away in banking, medicine, business, science, agriculture - anywhere else in society. Thinking "this too shall pass" about technology is pretty stupid.

That was fun. What would make YOUR list of the top stupid mistakes you've seen teachers make with technology?

Oh, I am not above making stupid mistakes as well. Maybe this posting was one of them...

* And you wondered what those strange noises were coming from the next cubicle.

** While surfing for porn at work might qualify as THE stupidist mistake a teacher could make with technology, those CIPA-required filters that only the kids know how to get around may be keeping this act off my teachers' stupid list. And here I bet you thought CIPA was about protecting kids.