Reflections on reflecting

Reflection:
6: a thought, idea, or opinion formed or a remark made as a result of meditation
7: consideration of some subject matter, idea, or purpose - <www.merriam-webster.com>
Kim Cofino, in a very good blog post The Next Generation Conference, writes:
Time for Reflection As much as I loved the Hong Kong Summit, there was simply not enough time for reflection and metacognition. No matter how much you know about a topic, there is always a need for discussion after an engaging session. After each session, a group leader could facilitate an unconference style discussion, with a focus question or Visible Thinking routine to get people processing the information. ...
Time at a conference for reflection? Conversation? Hmmmmm. When I put on my manager hat, I recognize that while I am indeed paying people to think (reflect), I am not sure I actually like them doing so while on company time. My first reaction to Kim's suggestion is that conference sessions are like coffee beans and the time for reflection is like the water you also need. Yes, you do need both the Sumatra and the hot water to make a mug of coffee, but for some reason I am fine with paying for the first, but not the second. Isn't the time to refect on the conference on the ride home?
And yes, I flatter myself thinking that I too am a reflective practitioner.
On the way home Saturday morning from a very enjoyable NHEMA conference, I ran into my friend Nick Glass who runs TeachingBooks in the Minneapolis airport. He asked: "Are you doing good?"
I thought he was asking how I was doing financially. I mumbled something about keeping a roof over my head and keeping the LWW living in the style to which she has become accustomed.
"No," Nick clarified, "What I am asking is if feel you are doing any good? Do you feel your speaking and workshops are making any difference?"
It's a scary question to reflect upon.
Some days I feel great about what I do - when someone e-mails or comes up to me at a conference to say that I have been helpful to them. But I also wonder what the hell I have been doing for the past 20 years when more school library positions and programs are in greater peril than ever. Either my strategies are flawed or the message hasn't gotten through in my work trying to make the profession more relevant, more critical, and less dispensable to schools.
Sigh...